I have a race in 17 days and it’s been 4 days that I don’t train.

Things have been crazy busy at work. Thanks God!!!
See, I work by myself, I run my own small business… so when things are busy it means that we are doing good. Busy makes me happy!

But unfortunately I’m not having enough time and energy to train. For this last couple of weeks ever single workout was a struggle and I was actually feeling a little guilty because I had so much work to do and I should be resting to be able to do good at work.
It’s been very hard to do both work and train well as I should.
… and this week and next are going to get even busier and it’s the 2 most important weeks of the training which will definitely make a big impact on my race performance on the 24th.

So I had to face reality and make a very hard decision.
I decided to put on hold my triathlon training for a few weeks and not do the Olympic distance race on the 24th.

I’m definitely not happy about it. I even cried about it.
I’m a proud girl, I hate quitting. I hate not being able to do what I want.
I planned this race since March. I trained hard for it but I don’t feel that I’m ready.
Just can’t deal with the pressure right now. I can’t train for (around) 8 hours a week right now. I just can’t.
I did my best until now. I know I could have done even better but I did what I could.

I will focus all my energy on my business right now. There is a lot to be done and I’m happy with where things are right now and I just want to make it even better!

I want to keep running and swimming. Not as intense of course.
But just the fact that I don’t have all the race pressure on me, just the fact that I don’t have a schedule to follow (which I love when in training) I already feel relieved!
You may not understand why I say ‘all the pressure’ ‘all the love/hate’ – maybe it’s just something I feel, I don’t know.
I’m weird. Sometimes I push myself too hard and it’s harsh. I want to do it right and if I don’t do it I feel awful.
Looking at my schedule and seeing that I should ride for 1:45 then run 30mins but I really didn’t have the time and energy was just stressing me out.
Got it? Weird, I know…

Well, that’s it. I’m on a little break right now!
But I’m looking forward to come back to training. When the time is right!